The past two days for me have started out well but have ended terribly.

I want nothing more than for him to be here now.

We had plans for a few days to go running together tonight, I’ve been looking so forward to it.

Tonight, I got a flat tire at school. I got towed, and currently my car is at an automobile place. My best friend was nice enough to drive me back to my house.

I get home, tired, annoyed and to my mother. I tell her what happened and I ask if I can borrow her car so I can hold up my end of the running deal tonight. 

She said no, the roads are apparently going to get worse and she doesn’t want me driving. BUT my boyfriend can drive here and we can run around.

I made a deal, a promise. I feel like an asshole when I don’t keep my promises. I want to see him. I want him to hold me. But I don’t want him drive the 2 hours here from work, it’s not fair to him 

so much sadness