February 2012
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Tonight, closer than before
Saturday Ed and I had an emotional day, and Sunday while we cuddled and agreed that we’re fine something felt off on Monday.
Even while we chatted on facebook something was off, and we got into a small argument. At the time the argument bothered me but this morning I felt fine.
Tonight I saw him and I’m so happy I decided to. We did homework as we watched Tangled (yes we finally...
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Awkward Feelings
I don’t know what’s going on recently. Usually when my boyfriend and I fight or argue the next few days or whatever we’re fine, and actually stronger than ever, but tonight we were brittle
Last night, after work I went to his house, we cuddled and basically assured our feelings of each other. He apologized for being a jerk and we held each other most of the night.
Tonight we...
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Won't sleep over
Today my boyfriend and I took a 5-6 hour trip to Massachusetts to relieve some memories.
As we headed back home he was saying how nice it would be to warm up from the wind by cuddling at his house, and I could sleep over etc.
He convinced me and I was set. As we drove on the road I was telling him how I would tell my parents, with the truth. He told me I should lie. Panic stricken I froze up and...
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Weird Dream!!
Ok so last night my boyfriend slept over (we were hanging out and my house is closer to his college. parent’s were home though…separate beds :( )
I went to sleep and my dream went a little something like this: We were in a field of some kind. Apple orchard, grape farm (?), or what have you. He was walking away and I wanted his attention so I called out a petname: Ed Bear.
Usually...
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Too soon to talk about marriage
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Depression, we meet again
This morning I woke up, tired, unmotivated, not wanting to live.
I haven’t felt like this in about a year.
The only reason I went to class this morning was because I figured it would be better to go in unprepared than to miss class completely
I go in, get yelled at for being unprepared then I have to sit next to all my classmates who are not only prepared, but they have so much...
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Dinner
Yesterday Ed and I drove home from my parent’s vacation house in Virginia.
After we unpacked the car and took a nap we went food shopping, at 6 lol
I made him dinner, a spinach and strawberry salad and chicken spinach and feta crepes. Well the crepes were a flop but we used pasta instead
He loved it.
The first time I’ve cooked for him and I set the bar high
Dessert was a...
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i love when he calls me Princess
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Can't wait
tonight I’m writting him a letter, buying ballons, making a CD.
Around 2am, I’m going to his house, and goint to decorate his truck; just to embarass him.
I can’t wait to see him tomorrow night, I can’t wait for my first, REAL Valentine’s Day.
I just want one, and then I’ll be over it
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Going to Rowan University tomorrow, Portfolio...
I’m 20, I have my license…why are BOTH my parents coming and why are they driving?
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Anxious
I’m fine, I’m happy as I drive home from getting my car
As soon as I pull up to my house I see the thing I dread, my father’s car.
I hate when my parent’s are home, I feel like I don’t belong at my own house. I hate the interrogations, I hate the constant NEED of conversations.
I feel like I can’ breath, I can’t be myself
I want out
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I want him here
The past two days for me have started out well but have ended terribly.
I want nothing more than for him to be here now.
We had plans for a few days to go running together tonight, I’ve been looking so forward to it.
Tonight, I got a flat tire at school. I got towed, and currently my car is at an automobile place. My best friend was nice enough to drive me back to my house.
I get home,...
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Leaving a drinking party
Ed:What did you think about that scne?
Me: I hated it
I had one drink because no one else would participate in flip cup, Ed hates drinking
Ed:You promise not to be pressured into this scene right?
Me: I promise. You’re friends probably think I’m an asshole because they offered me the same drink three times and each time I responded I got angrier.
Silence, then he grabbed my...
Screenplay
Tonight my boyfriend and I agreed to move some patio furniture from a friend;s house to my house.
We got to the woman’s house; Maryann. We loaded the table and chairs into his truck, it took about 2 hours (we had some problems along the way)
The three of us then went into her home to talk. She made cappicinos, put out biscotti, and cookies. At first the conversation she did the talking,...