February 2012
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Too soon to talk about marriage
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Depression, we meet again
This morning I woke up, tired, unmotivated, not wanting to live.
I haven’t felt like this in about a year.
The only reason I went to class this morning was because I figured it would be better to go in unprepared than to miss class completely
I go in, get yelled at for being unprepared then I have to sit next to all my classmates who are not only prepared, but they have so much...
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Dinner
Yesterday Ed and I drove home from my parent’s vacation house in Virginia.
After we unpacked the car and took a nap we went food shopping, at 6 lol
I made him dinner, a spinach and strawberry salad and chicken spinach and feta crepes. Well the crepes were a flop but we used pasta instead
He loved it.
The first time I’ve cooked for him and I set the bar high
Dessert was a...
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i love when he calls me Princess
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Can't wait
tonight I’m writting him a letter, buying ballons, making a CD.
Around 2am, I’m going to his house, and goint to decorate his truck; just to embarass him.
I can’t wait to see him tomorrow night, I can’t wait for my first, REAL Valentine’s Day.
I just want one, and then I’ll be over it
^.^
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Going to Rowan University tomorrow, Portfolio...
I’m 20, I have my license…why are BOTH my parents coming and why are they driving?
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Anxious
I’m fine, I’m happy as I drive home from getting my car
As soon as I pull up to my house I see the thing I dread, my father’s car.
I hate when my parent’s are home, I feel like I don’t belong at my own house. I hate the interrogations, I hate the constant NEED of conversations.
I feel like I can’ breath, I can’t be myself
I want out
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I want him here
The past two days for me have started out well but have ended terribly.
I want nothing more than for him to be here now.
We had plans for a few days to go running together tonight, I’ve been looking so forward to it.
Tonight, I got a flat tire at school. I got towed, and currently my car is at an automobile place. My best friend was nice enough to drive me back to my house.
I get home,...
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Leaving a drinking party
Ed:What did you think about that scne?
Me: I hated it
I had one drink because no one else would participate in flip cup, Ed hates drinking
Ed:You promise not to be pressured into this scene right?
Me: I promise. You’re friends probably think I’m an asshole because they offered me the same drink three times and each time I responded I got angrier.
Silence, then he grabbed my...
Screenplay
Tonight my boyfriend and I agreed to move some patio furniture from a friend;s house to my house.
We got to the woman’s house; Maryann. We loaded the table and chairs into his truck, it took about 2 hours (we had some problems along the way)
The three of us then went into her home to talk. She made cappicinos, put out biscotti, and cookies. At first the conversation she did the talking,...
January 2012
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Most Perfect Date 1/28/12
We were cuddling in his bed, he began to kiss my back and neck.
The feeling tickled me, he whispered in my ear about the first day he met me, how he tried to get close to me. Then he went on about our first date, and how amazing it is that we’re together.
I turned to face him, he held me for a moment before he pulled me away and looked at me saying “Hey lets go see a shooting star...
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Member that time I actually had something to post...
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Fuck Transfer Shit
I’m putting so much work into the 4 colleges I’m applying to and I’m so scared I won’t be accepted into any of them
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I love him so much
I’m thinking about him right now
His smile, the way he says my name,the way he’ll tickle me just to hear me laugh,
the crazy part is, I saw him 2 days ago. I spent four days and three nights with him, and now that he’s not by my side, or a roll over in the bed away; I miss him.
I feel like I haven’t seen him in a week
Tomorrow we’re seeing each other for about...
Letters to my Boyfriend
September 17th 2011 I began writing letters to my boyfriend
Letters after I would see him, letters when I would miss him, today I sorted through the letters. After 4 months of writing I’ve written 40 letters.
40 personally hand written letters that are making a manila folder burst
I can’t wait to give them to him, to have him read them
I hope he likes them
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Had one of the best weekends
spent the weekend at my boyfriend’s house, lied to my parents telling them I was at the Poconos with another couple.
I came home today, sister’s home from India.
She told me what my father said. “You’re sister’s with that boyfriend of hers, in the Poconos, shackin’ up”
He thinks I’m a whore. I’ve joked with my boyfriend saying that he...
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I just saw him, 20 minutes ago...
i miss him already
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Paper due in half an hour
only write the introduction in the past hour…
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Member that time I was soooo obbsessed with tumblr...
…then I stopped being forever alone
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Was totally pulled over last night and took a...
bullshit, i had coffee bitch. I wasn’t drunk
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A Truly Happy New Year
Me: Hey Ed, it's 15 minutes until the ball drops, lets go back and forth about highlights of 2011 for us.
Ed: Ok, In 2011 I met the most amazing girl
Me: In 2011 I got to go on a road trip to Massachusetts with my boyfriend.
We exchanged things in 2011 that we had fun with, most of them involved each other
Ed: 2011 was the first year that I dated a girl that I saw that I could potentially marry one day
He began to hold me tighter, I buried my face into his neck
That night I never felt more love, more trust.
I stayed the night and waking up next to him was the best feeling in the world
He brought me into a happy new year, and I know it'll stay that way
December 2011
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Last night we decided to not make love until we go away together, to make it more special.
This morning, we made breakfast, pancakes and eggs. Then after we cleaned up we took a shower; he has work today and I have school.
During our shower, things happened. We made love this morning even after our decision from last night.
Right before he left we were sitting by each other looking into...
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I want him to always hold me tight, I want him to be the one
Regrets I can live with,
But without him, I can’t
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His warm bed
I drove home from work to find no one home, I text my boyfiend that I wanted to be with him.
He sadi he would cook for me since I would be driving the hour up to see him
Once I got there he made me pancaes and sausages, it was delicious.
Then we cuddled in his bed, being so close to him I was so warm I just felt him and love in that bed, it wasn’t long until we both fell asleep.
11:40pm...
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11:19 and my phone rings
Me: Hello?
Boyfriend: Hey I just wanted to say I love you and have a goodnight
Me: Awwww I love you too, everything ok?
Boyfriend: Yea yea, I'm just talking low so I don't wake anyone up
Me: Oh
Boyfriend: Ya know I was just up studying and I thought of how I'm gonna see you tomorrow and I can't wait
Me: I love you so much you're the best
Boyfriend: No you are
Me: I love you, sweet dreams
Boyfriend: Love you too, have a goodnight